蜗牛！～

雨后的天空，没有彩虹，仍然细雨纷飞。发现了一只蜗牛。也不知道它到底从何而来，为什么平时都不见的蜗牛，每每出现在雨后。那么的慵懒，紧紧地“黏”在树叶上，一点一点慢慢爬。好慢好慢。。。蜗牛～你要爬到什么时候？你要爬去哪里？你为什么出现？唉！幸好你不是出现在法国。

“一片”大学问～！

今天妈妈拎了一袋面粉，几棵葱回来，我就马上知道他要煮什么了。Hmm..这是我们一家人不想吃饭时，最喜欢吃的“晚餐”。（很不健康哦!不要学姐姐！哈哈！）妈妈又要煎“面粉糕”了。

汤面粉糕（俗称板面捏的）吃过，干的也一定吃过，煎的，没尝过吧？突然心血来潮，跟妈妈拿了一些面粉，想做一做甜的面粉糕，好像pancake那样。这么刚巧，有牛奶，鸡蛋，白糖，就成就了我的Pancake!本想与妈妈一较高下，看谁煎的漂亮，好吃，结果。。。。。。

可想而知啦，我简直是班门弄斧啦！姜还是老的辣。妈妈煎的色相味俱全。火侯控制得恰到好处。我咧？哈哈，太没耐性了！妈妈一片需要二十分钟慢火，我？可等不了那么久。加大火，想让它快点熟！没想到，简单一片面粉糕还有大学问！结果。。。

我的？嘻嘻。我自己吃得倒很开心啦（装的〕，输了，但不能输掉面子啊！最后还是吃妈妈的好吃！但是，好可惜，我因硬塞了我那一块不甜不咸的面粉糕，肚子被撑了一半，害我不能多吃妈妈的“好料”！唉！都是面子惹的祸！

猜猜哪一个是我的？

上面那个是我的！

Sorry,I don't love u...

Okay I know you like me very much..BUT wait!I really cant stand it everytime,when I see you,the way that you express your love to me,it’s too passionate for me dear.You like to run forward in 120km/hour of speed towards me and starts to do some “disgusting” action.You like to molest me ah…Not only YOU!but……all your friends as well!!!!!Urgh…YOU!YOU!YOU!

I don’t owe you anything right?Did I offend you before?Why everytime when I step into someone’s house with YOU around,(especially the bigger YOU),you will run to me and start licking me?aiks..so disgusting and I don’t like it at all…yer…Somehow,you seem to be knowing that I scared of you huh?Yeah,I did.I really scare that you will mistaken my arm as delicious food and my leg as drumstick and have a bite…Why you don’t let go of me?Instead of others,you will always choose me…I don’t like YOU!:c Even when I go jogging,so many of your friends are barking at me……woo…I don’t like you at all....You dont look at me one kind.I wont like u after all...

爱在心里口难开！

今天，我回到了Shalom，我以前工作的地方。再次踏上这个熟悉的楼梯，有点紧张，有点害怕，怕没人理我咧。Hmm..谁知，当我一踏进课室的那一刹那，有好多大朋友，小朋友冲了过来，把我围住，抱着我。真的好感动。虽然我已离开一年了，但是，小朋友们还是记得我，那么的爱戴我，我真的好感动。我那两个“徒弟“啊，虽然他们没冲过来，但是，我还是可以看到兴奋之情写满了脸上。真的好想念那一段日子啊！太高兴了。这些小朋友的拥抱，流露自他们最自然的心里，毫不害羞，好羡慕他们。如果，大人们，也能像他们一样，勇敢 的对他们所爱的人表达出最真挚的爱，无私的，那就好了！就不会那么复杂了！但是，人，随着成长，也为自己筑起了高高的一面墙来保护自己，深怕别人会侵入。东方的父母啊，更是如此，不把爱放在嘴里，而是放在行动上。所以我说，这就是“爱在心里口难开”。想要对父母说一句“我爱你”是多么的困难啊，父母也是如此。为什么呢？为什么那句话却迟迟说不出口？明明关心，却。。。却。。。又说不出来。话到嘴边了，又被我吞回去了。我真该打！取而代之的，却是另一些话。为什么？内疚了，下一次，又重蹈覆辙了。天啊！

发功～

What are these people doing:??Hmm…Shh…..keep quiet.They are focusing now,trying to figure out something or generating power kut…When I saw this pic,I really laugh out loud.But I was doing my mask then,cant laugh that broad.So have to “kek”,cannot laugh….so difficult not to laugh!Aiyo….really miss the moment la…:p

P/s : This is Lew Kai Xian师母的招牌动作。Copyright reserved.

Picture taken from sinying's fb.

Alarm!How a man fades away...

Slowly fades away.How a man can fade away so easily.It doesn’t happen in just a day.But how fast it is!Today I met with an old friend.Caught this opportunity to ask about her brother,my old colleague while I was working in Shalom…I really hope he was doing fine.But sadly,he fades away.hmm…..It’s so easily to be influenced by the world.Slightly careless,and I will slip.Temptation surrounds me almost everyday,every moment,it’s test from God.Sometimes I pass,sometimes I failed.It’s more important to know where I fail and get it right again.But world is cruel and sometimes doesn’t allow us to amend our mistakes.He used to be a godly guy.He has passion for God,love for kids and commitment to family.But I really disappointed when I was told that he fades away just like that.Fall into wrong relationship,just like what my parent did last time.It;s so dangerous and it is a trap of MR S.A.Tan…and I believe it is the most easily trapped trick for young adults nowdays.Now I have learnt a lesson again.He really speaks.He does.I knew my boundary by now and know that,this,is what I will end up to be if I contimue my fantasy.Thank God that You remind me.I want to wake up from this dream.I want to get out from this trap.Desire can destroy.esecially the wrong ones.That;s how it fades away.How easy it is.Unless it is your will,I will wait on Your plan for me.

“花样男孩”记。

终于看完了“花样男孩”.这就是我这几天的生活。虽然那是一部翻拍剧，翻拍自流星花园，但不一样的演员，不一样的拍摄手法，仍让我看得津津有味。：〕Hmm....就把他当作一部偶像剧来看吧，所谓偶像剧，就是把不可能发生的烂漫爱情故事拍成剧集。至少我是那么认为的。想当初还是十三四岁时，流星花园推出，风靡了成千上万的女生，我，哈哈，也不例外。小女生嘛，难免会做白日梦，希望这故事，真的发生在自己身上，找到一个又帅有钱的道明寺。现在回想起来，还真可笑咧！哈哈。啪啪！两巴掌，醒了吧？嘻嘻。二十岁高龄了，还看偶像剧，只不过，这次，我不被牵着鼻子走了，不作白日梦了，而是以一位观众去观赏，想从中吸取点什么的。天下间怎么可能发生这种故事啊？好吧，或许真的存在吧我也不会惊讶。

如果我是金丝草，我会选择尹智厚。不知道为什么，总觉得，能给你安全感的男人，需要他时，就出现在你眼前的男人，才是好男人。真有点为他感到可惜。无论如何，他还是能很大方的对待他的好友及所爱的人。这是需要很大的宽容和爱。大爱。

Happy Teacher's Day!

Today is teacher’s day.Managed to go back to my school,where I had stayed there for SEVEN years…..my “BELOVED” Sekolah Tinggi Kluang…But it’s always good to be back.After more than a year.I managed to see many teachers,regardless my form1 to form5’s teachers,or form 6 teachers…..happily chit chatting away as the teachers still remembered us….hahahaha:)

Stay at school for almost 3 hours I guess.walked past many roads which I had walked,ran before,passed by many classrooms,garden….all of the memories brought into my mind…..well…I’m glad tat I made the trip la after all….at least I didn’t know that my teacher miss our badge so badly,kept praising us wor..not only one teacher,but most of it o!:)

After that,went for a movie with Erin and Sean.…..Should go and watch!Its a good movie and it’s worth watching!strong recommended here!:)

Happy Teacher's Day!

Today is teacher’s day.Managed to go back to my school,where I had stayed there for SEVEN years…..my “BELOVED” Sekolah Tinggi Kluang…But it’s always good to be back.After more than a year.I managed to see many teachers,regardless my form1 to form5’s teachers,or form 6 teachers…..happily chit chatting away as the teachers still remembered us….hahahaha:)

Stay at school for almost 3 hours I guess.walked past many roads which I had walked,ran before,passed by many classrooms,garden….all of the memories brought into my mind…..well…I’m glad tat I made the trip la after all….at least I didn’t know that my teacher miss our badge so badly,kept praising us wor..not only one teacher,but most of it o!:)

After that,went for a movie with Erin and Sean.…..Should go and watch!Its a good movie and it’s worth watching!strong recommended here!:)

Happy Belated birthday,WYE LI~

To my beloved dearest WYE LI~ From left:Y Li,Tshan,Kxian,Derrie

Happy belated birthday to you!Specially dedicated this post to you...

Oooo...
miss you lots.miss the time while you were still staying beside me,always walking out with an apple,a plate and a knife...miss the time when we squate before tshan's room and chat till midnight.miss calling out your name.."WYE LI~~~~~~"

Thank you for being such a dear and caring friend and sister to me.Thanks for your care,your support and your advice while you were still with us.Even though you have lft OPTO,you still will care ,we still can chat through msn…You are a girl with great personality.You have your own idea,independent and you are adorable!hehe it;’s true!It;s really my blessing to get to know you.

So,now,you got your golden key.I sincerely wish you a very blessed birthday.May God continues to bless you,guide you and turn you into a woman after His own heart.May you be showered with abundance of love,joy peace and happiness in your path ahead.

Really wan to apologise for leeting your aeroplane few times.hmm…I really do believe somehow we must meet again,soon!before that, I will keep you in my heart de o!All the best to you,dear sis.Take care and God blez!:)

我看完Slumdog Millionaire 了！～

终于，我抽出时间看完了”SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE”了。题材虽算普通，少不了爱情故事，但不失为一部好电影！电影从头到尾都是在印度拍摄的，演员们也一众是印度演员。也搞不清楚他到底是好莱乌电影，还是宝莱乌电影。

故事开头以一对小兄弟，Salim 和Jamal 在平民窟闹事出场。刚开始还真的蛮像pantcy说的，拍摄的的确是当地的平民窟，情况太糟糕了，看了，还真的想令人作呕。但是，电影实在是有那么点吸引人。有一幕，Jamal 为了见偶像，不惜跳进粪坑，变成了一个“屎人”冲了出来，向偶像讨签名。这决心还真奠定了他以后要寻回他爱人的决心啊！

被宗教份子攻击，Jamal 和 Salim 的妈妈被攻击，两兄弟也听着妈妈的话，逃啊，逃啊，就逃出了人生的历练出来了。同时，也有个小女孩Latika紧跟着他们俩讨生活。三人被人贩子拐走，当起了小乞丐，还误把坏人maman当圣人咧！热爱唱歌的Jamal差一点就变成了“陈伟联”（新加坡一位盲人歌手）,因为maman要把他眼睛用汤匙挖出来，盲人唱歌挣多一点钱嘛！所幸，Salim救了他。两兄弟和Latika又逃啊，逃的。只是，这次，两兄弟成功跳上一列火车，但Latika却没这么侥幸了。从此，两人分散了。

故事延续到后来。。。我就不提细节了。因为要你们自己去看。〔可以跟我拿！:)〕Jamal 就这样，经历了人生的起起落落，误打误撞地给他闯入了”WHO WANTS TO BE A MILLIONAIRE”的节目。是命运在眷顾他吧。从1000块起的问题到一百万的问题，他竟然都能回答出来。每一题，他都亲生经历过而知道答案的。好神奇吧？当然也因此被警察请去问话罗！但问不出个所以然，因为他的经历是千真万确的。

电影不算是高潮迭起，但也算是蛮紧凑的。其中更有几幕引人深思。Salim出卖了弟弟Jamal,但在最后关头，作出了正确的决定，帮助了Jamal心爱的女人逃离魔掌。似乎预料到他会遭遇不测，他竟然把浴缸洒满了钞票，最后也死在了里面。为什么他要死在钞票中呢？这时候，钱能救他一命吗？

还有一幕，主持人出卖Jamal…真的是太气人了！但是Jamal好像不受骗。我不知道那主持人为什么不让jamal赢取一百万，还想陷害他。人，不都是为自己私欲而想吗？为了不让别人比自己出名，妒嫉，陷害什么都作得出来。

最后一幕，Jamal和Latika 重逢。Latika说：“我以为我们只有在死后才能在一起。”他说了一句，“这是命中注定的。”命中注定。是啊！生老病死，家人，朋友，甚至是未来伴侣，不都是命中注定的吗？不需要刻意寻找的，是我的，就是我的，不是我的，就不是我的。

Hmm…这是个不错的电影。但不敢保证你们也会喜欢，因为。。。不知道啦。或许你们会觉得他普通，但我认为再看仔细一点，用心去看，你会发现很多小小的人生道理，帮你复习复习从小到大学过的人生道理。

定力

忍。你到底还能忍多久呢？
诱惑
好多好多的诱惑
好
是时候来考验你的定力了
一定
一定
一定要克制住
对它的渴望
不然
你就惨了
听明白了吗，
刘恺娴？

老师难为啊！

Aiyo~since I come back to Kluang...I have a great task to do wow....have to become tuition teacher for my niece,not elementary sch,but only kindergarten ler....Really test my patience lo..What to do?haiz....The kid...really will let me 抓狂！never quiet,never keep still...asking question keep saying "I dunno"...stretch,stretch strecth... dont think im so naughty when i was young gua....Bluek~

I like kids.I really do.HOWEVER,this is only valid when they are little angel.When they turn into little devil....whoa!it's a good training for me to be a future mother man...（now i only know how our mummy brought us up o....)erm...if not too far still,its a training for me to face some people in my life with lotsa patience...After all,no cane la.will just hiak hiak hiak..."if u dont listen to me,u will know!"

终于，又回到了我熟悉的地方了。将会有一个月时间在这里好好的给我充电。一定要好好利用。不过，好像我的行程还蛮满的咧。加油罗！

回到这里，hmm...满复杂的感觉。有一些些的害怕。害怕某些人和事。先不管他啦，享受我的假期再说。:)

改革

Hmm......Since Now im in Holiday....so I will try to improve my blog by making some changes to my blog lo:)

A day without laughter.

I really dont want to post sad post anymore...But i cant....This place is the only place where i release my feeling,I cant hide and i wont hide.I dont mean to make anyone of you cry or feel sad.Its just from the bottom of my heart.

9th May--first day in KTSN...nothing special but somthing miss out.first day without donald duck,pantcy and watermelon.Saw tshan's orange slipper nicely place in front of the door,i nearly went to knock her door,kacau her.no more.no more.Sadness.I just cant control myself.It invaded every part of me.

Went to pc bengkel with LYNN.Well,a boring one.took chance to call tshan,knew tat they are shopping and eating together wif our coursemates,dimsum....Loneliness attacked us.Even Lynn.Both of us felt so down,so down.Sometimes I really think did i made the right decision?There is always pain in the offering.I hate.I hate this feeling.I hate the feeling of missing someone so badly.needless to say got so many more.Its so agonising.Every place that I went,There was a scene brought back into my mind.Argh.I want to leave this place.

Word cant really describe my feeling right now.the emptiness,the loneliness,the sadness....its mixing up together.I do really miss u all.Why?The sense of belonging was once so strong.yet now suddenly detached.how can i endure.My fault.I rarely called ppl,but today,i actuaaly called twice!Dear friends,do u know what is your weight inside my heart now?A day without laughter,without running sound,without teasing came to an end.There will be 1000+ days more to go.

Ahh...dont say le.later will poison me even more.I want to be strong.To be strong in living without u guy's accompany.To be strong to endure the suffering of seperation.To be strong to laugh again.I want and I will.Just give me some time.

langkawi之旅～

好快喔！三天两夜的浪加威之旅结束了！hmm...虽然这一次好象没玩到什么东西似的，想坐览车又碰壁没开，但是，还是满享受的啦！第一次坐飞机，坐快艇，还真的有点怕怕的。驾车的coursemate朋友，你们都好geng啊！Lynn，我太太太佩服你了！你驾车时，又稳，又快 ，坐你的车真的好有安全感！:)

旅程呢，就不多提了，因为也不外乎是到eagle square拍照啊，去island hopping 啊，把我的衣服弄得好臭好臭，走走逛逛啊，买免税巧克力啊。。。。值得一提的是，langkawi岛上的人民好象都好悠闲喔！驾车好像有那么一点点慢。（虽然对我而言，那是我的正常驾车速度。哈！〕

想乘机拍好多好多照片，例如那个在海边跳的那一张，就跳了好多次，都好象没有一张完美的也！美好的一刹那，就算它可能只是个梦，那么的遥远，却又那么的靠近，要赶快捕捉起来。至少它曾经让我开心过，那已足够了，不是吗？会好好珍惜每一个时刻，一起吃炒饭，一起下水，一起谈天说地，我想，那会化成一个回忆，美好的回忆。

我对这一次旅程或许有一点点的遗憾。或许是之前的期望太高了吧，也或许出现了一点点（希望只是一点点〕的沟通问题，让我对这趟旅程的热诚浇息了不少。但是，我还是一样，尽可能玩得尽兴了。也对某某些人另眼相看哦！有些coursemate好gentleman 哦！会保护女生，驾车的会停着等，帮忙提东西，确保没人落在后头。值得鼓励！nya nya好开心！哈哈！

思念是一种病。它会传染，传染到你脑里每一个细胞都在思念。一个人在房间，对着空床，又生病了。

离别在即

凌晨三点十五分。从婷珊的房间回来。看见大家都在忙着收拾东西，准备搬家了。我也收拾得七七八八了。但我心情却还没收拾好呢！唉！今天把may给送走了，突然离愁来袭。真的好害怕这种场面喔。一年了。整整一年了。就是已经那么习惯他们的存在了，新学期回来，他们不在宿舍了，我会要多久来适应呢？

一路走来，
有起有伏，
有悲伤有欢乐，
有开心有难过，
有生气有玩闹，
有分享有陪伴，
有秘密有玩笑，
有眼泪有笑声，
有nasi goreng ayam有jagung水，
有负担有分担，
酸甜苦辣娴，
都尝了。。
一年，还有三年呢！
最重要的事，
有你，有我，有他，有大家！
祝福你们新家住得愉快。

朋友，真的是一门很深奥的学问。真心相待，付出的，不会白白流失的。