回家记

这几天回家，很享受，见到了老朋友，一起唱k，悠闲的坐在old taste喝茶，一待就待了三小时。。呵呵。。现在是礼拜天六点正，我还没有读retinoskop。。。不祥。。哈哈～

不过，最近回家才发现，原来我家最近好像面临了一些些小问题。看见妈妈自己喜欢的，都不舍得买，该买的如牛奶补骨骼，也不舍得，看了又看，就买不下手。但妈妈爸爸仍然很舍得买我需要的。。。以后，我也该省一省了，买一些爸妈喜欢的，而不是我喜欢的。

明早回KL了，好舍不得哦！

Moon cake~

复杂
这是我现在的写照
眼见了
心就乱了
好多好多事
涌上心头
沉默 无言
澎湃 热情
反复不定
拼命压抑着
一直在压抑着
不解开吧
或许 时机成熟时
就自有分晓。

残酷逼近～

残酷的实习考试要到了！一天天的逼近，却又无能为力，无法做些什么的。没法练习，就没有经验，没有经验，就没有信心，没有信心怎么会考好呢？唉，真的没有练到也。。。就好像。。。
你还不想上大号，就把你推进厕所,逼你坐在马桶拉给他看！好啦，我知道这很恶心，但是，我只可以想到这个比喻啊！唉。。。

曾想过，回家乡，进去一间眼镜店，要求借试镜片，但。。。哎呀，脸皮太薄了！

怎么办？怎么办？就这样办吧！祝我好运罗！

受伤

今天，一个朋友说了一句话让我很受伤，很难过。

或许你不知道你这句不管是有意还是无心的讽刺威力有多大，但，肯定的是，在我身上的创伤不小。你那句话等于否定了一直以来我所给予的。你真的了解我的挣扎吗？让我有感我好像真的印证了你所说的。

但是，我想对你说，虽然你的话在我心里的伤已经造成，但是，我不会生气你，因为我爱你这个朋友的程度多过我想生气你的程度。时间会证明一切，到底是你说的对，还是你误会了我。
我告诉我自己，今天太阳下山前，我一定会原谅你。我说到做到。

我恨我自己
无法兑现我的承诺

我恨我自己
随波逐流

我恨我自己
抵挡不住诱惑

这是我
最弱的一面

让我在剩下的几天
把那仅有的一点点承诺
补偿掉吧！

生小病了～

终于，挨了那么久，我生病了。不是什么大病，就只是咳嗽喉咙痛。。但现在流感肆虐，难免会怕怕，不是那么倒霉吧？？更何况现在流感变种了，如果它二度来袭UKM，这时候的我，还能抵抗吗？深思。。

咳嗽很讨人厌，因为它总是在不适合的时候出现。。。晚上也猛咳的，感觉就快把脾脏给咳出来了。喉咙痛跟加难过，好不容易好了，又来。。。真拿它没办法。。。但也怪我自己，没什么戒口。。一点点活该啦。。哈哈。好，回去BSMM拿药水喝。

考试来了，我又一直没精神读书，一直想睡，读不到几页，就倒了。不不，我不能这时候生病倒下，一定要加油。他的恩典，是够用的。打起精神来吧！

无题

复杂的心
何时才能够沉淀下来
恍然
在闪烁之间
那念头一闪而过
就那么快
但 深深地烙在了脑海
它 始终还没有到位。

我必须学的～

三思而后行。

Clinical duty in BANGI~

Last thursday went for duty clinical booth pesta convo in bangi....ah mai,lao po,izzah,yc,hau wei went together.We skipped our physiology occular class(missed may may's presentation:c) to go to bangi from 1pm to 6pm.

We took 12pm bus and the bus "shaked" all the way to bangi..the seat was vibrating all the time and both me and tshan dizzy dizzy till got down the bus..To avoid dizziness,we didnt sleep as we knew that sleeping will make it more dizzy..

Upon reaching there,we walked a distance to reach a familiar place,where I just been to few weeks ago ,dewan gemilang....haha..Right away,we started our duty...wearing our lab coat and get everything done..

At the beginning,we were quite free hanging around,playing among ourselves,taking photo...Who knows,one hour later,people started to flood in..not the student,not our own people,but the public!We started to check the whole eye check up non stop from 2 to 6.30 pm...whew....that's tiring!And, we met with different kind of patients,wnd created lots of jokes..haha

Ah mai measured Accomodation with RAF rule on a patient,but sadly,the patient cant see clearly even at furthest distance.He doesn;t believe other can see clearly also.So,he just GRABBED the rule from ah mai,our optometrist of the day and do the test on him!Wa seh..."You can see meh?I bet you cant"*swt*

Another case happened when i measures visual field of the patient.She is a mid age malay lady.She was supposed to look in front while im doing the test.I would show my fingers from different direction and asked whether she saw it or not while she remain looking in front.(for your info,this is to test your visual field,that is how wide you can see besides your primary position of the eye)However,her reaction really made me lol la...when i tunjuk my fingers from side,she said she could see it.WHY?because she kept looking at the finger!Of course she can saw it la...haha...Though I tried to explain to her many times,she still cant understand....BUt luckily till the end,she was enlightened(dunno why) and we managed to finish the test successfully(wat a release)haha...This really stretched my patience not to get worked up so easily....haha:p

It was a tiring day...Upon reaching Kt,i went for tugas in BSMM room...And i fell sick after that.But after all,it was a good experience for us to acquire practical experience on our clinical skill,though there are still much much much space for us to improve.....So,as a result,tomoro Im going to improve our clinical skill again lo~gambateh!:p

A Crazy Day~

Today we had a crzay day....our class started at 8 am in the morning till 10.30 pm at night!wiew!What a hectic day!

8am till 11am : Klinik primer....when we learnt to use retinoscope,which is quite hard for me to use.....confused.....undecisive which power to use......distance too far......but,thank God,my supervisor,Dr Zainora is super good de....hehe:) this is the 1st klinik that i did without trembling hands...

11am till 2pm : Supposingly i was having ophthalmic class...but It was cancelled.So,i went back to my friend;s apartment after lunch.....Took some rest and I didn't manage to sleep bcause i pi pok pi pok with ah mai....had a nice chat with him and discover lots of things....:)

2pm till 4.30 pm : here come the time wasting time management lecture..as usual,sitting behind,doing our own stuff....

5pm to 6.30 pm : Hubungan Etnik....Though i din really see our hubungan that harmony....Sorry i din know the lecture content today coz i didnt listen to the lecturer at all!It's too bored and I langsung dont know whats he talking.....

6.30 to 8 pm : rest time,waiting for dinner,and took a nap.....before the dinner arrived..long time din order rice le.....haha..finally can eat it again!not bad not bad!haha....optometri/2 first dinner together!

8pm to 10.30 pm : Pharmacology class....Dr Rohi too geng le...His lecture was actually very interesting and i already tried my very best to concentrate on his lecture...but ....He spoke super fast de....I couldnt really catch soome of the points that he mentioned.Towards the end,I already saturated with all the muscarinic and nicotinic receptors...which made my brain full and overflew....

So u think this is my day?

No way!it didnt end just like tat!

10.30 pm to 11pm : took taxi home...RM 5.20...heart ache,especially when i got know that there was actually a bus fetching kt ppl home....("<)

11pm to 11.55 pm : meeting for kempen derma darah

12 am : though its already a new day....but i still counted it in as yesterday..Finally i was at my room.Took a shower and ready with stuff....

12.30 am : here i am sitting infront of laptop,knocking on the key pad to produce this post lo..*yawn*

Hmm......What a day!A crazy day but i survived!muahahaha~

Thank God that I the person returned the book...Finally....can relief le....She finally return on the last week of the due date.....Praise God!:) Wanjen and my wallet no need to make a hole le...haha:p

曾几何时，你的出现让我感到不安。我不知道原因，也不想知道，为什么我们之间那变化这么大。我不想像小孩一样，和你争宠。这种事我不做。你需要依赖，我成全你。希望你是真心交我们朋友，不是有何意思，我想，我会把真心再拿出来给你。时间会证明一切。

Happy Birthday Ting Shan -Jie!

(u gave this pic to me when my bday...now i give bc to you~haha:)

As Usual....I wan to dedicated this post to my dearest lao-po in UKM:~

TING TING SHAN SHAN!

Blessed birthday to you!Im really fortunate and blessed enough to know you,a true and caring friend in ukm....You are so lovely,so cute,so loving,so kind and so lorheng....till a point that I really felt that I cant live without you....in opto....haha:)

Still remember our times when we usually talked till 1-2 am in the morning?still remember all our heartfelt talk?no need to cover anything and felt free to talk anything from the bottom of our hearts....I still miss the time u know?a lot a lot...When we shared our tears and joy together in your room ,my room....

Still remember our time when we like to stuck in your room eat honey stars?applying nail polish and mask?especially before an event everytime?we chat like nobody's business and we laugh out loud......we share our beauty tips and we learned new method of nail polishing.....Do u know that I miss that a lot?

Still remember the time when we used to go to school together,go cafe eat nasi goreng ayam together,go jogging together?sama-sama caught the bus,chased after it, and sama-sama stuck in macD...all the sweat that we have shed together,rain we had been drenched together and time we wasted together.....Do u know that I miss that a lot?

Still remember the time when we study together?in Library...in my room...out of no where you would pop out and we will start chatting till forget about studying....hoho.....I miss that a lot...

Lao Po~Really wanna thank you for letting me to have such a wonderful memory in KTSN and in campus.(not forgetting others who created this memory together too!)You are really so dear to us and you always have ways to make us laugh...You are mature(in some way?haha)and you are caring,which nobody else can overtake you...And...you are a generous girl who always contribute your honey stars.....In your birthday~just wanna wish you blessed birthday and may you always be filled with abundance of love,joy ,peace and happiness in your life....:plove you always and let us continue this journey together lo...:)

Gala Dinner 2009~

昨晚是一个美丽的晚上。因为我们都参加了一个晚宴。有几个好朋友也都一起出席了这个一点类似慈善的晚会。虽然并没有很隆重，但是，整个晚会下来，是简单而亲切的。我非常之兴奋，是因为我的几个朋友们都出席了，能够与我一起分享我们，学生组庆祝一周岁的喜悦。他们能够知道我一直以来所参加的活动，全都在昨晚播放。很高兴能够与他们分享。也让他们知道HEART Association到底是什么东东。。

so excited taking pic with nigerian brothers...

虽然所谓的buffet到最后变成了中式菜饭，或许让你们失望了，但是感谢上帝，真的感谢，我们受厚爱，八个同学里，一半的人得到了幸运抽奖，而那四个里，两个是大奖！这真的不是意外。哪有那么平均的意外？哈哈～但也不是说我们作弊啦。。。是神听见了我们的需要吧！他真的有够好的，恩赐了我们这么多意外的收获！我真替他们感到开心！但很可惜，有一个朋友很渴望得到大奖，但始终擦肩而过。。。对不起箩！哈哈。。下次买多几张票吧！

opto at gala dinner

所以～我想讲的是，我亲爱的同学们，感谢你们的出席，支持我，让我好感动，也让晚会增色不少哦！突然间，我想起了阿麦给我的一首歌，“生命中的朋友”。。。回来，播了它，听了一遍。。。我也不知道为什么会想起那首歌，只知道朋友，在我生命里，是很重要的一个元素。朋友们，不管你曾出现在我人生中哪个阶段，我只想让你们知道，我真的很爱很爱你们，我并没有忘记我们一起渡过的酸甜苦辣。正如歌词里所写，你的出现，让我不再感到孤独。。你的关怀，让我得到希望。。。谢谢你们！愿我们友谊长存！

In memorial of Pastor Sunther...

I reminded of dear Ps.Sunther today...He had left us a year and sometimes I wondered how he did over there,in heaven?Hmm..must be sitting at the right hand of Lord Jesus ,enjoying the feast...:p
I still remembered last year,when I first received the sms about Ps's death during anatomy lecture,i suddenly felf struck by thunderstorm.WHY?Once I thought is a joke from someone else.But,I kept receiving the same sms news for many times.WHY?I just talked to you,I just shaked my hand with you,and you just prayed for me dearly before I left Kluang.Everything that you have done is still vividly kept appearing on my mind that time.Yet,they just told me,you had left this world...

I couldn't understand,because i thought that you still have so many things to be done on this earth.Your church,MYPG,family.....and everyone needs you!especially ,Pastor Lydia,Davian,Ethan and Devina and A.O.G members!How can God take you away?How could He??I asked God this question many times.I felt sad for Ps Lydia,your wife,who has to take up the whole church and family alone from that day onwards....

To my suprise,Ps Lydia was calm to accept your away.She was a strong woman in God.She knew,she knew where you were going,and the assurance that you,already being fetched by the LORD back to heavenly home.This made Ps Lydia felt a bit comforted despite the painful fact that you left this world.From sadness to calmness,i also accepted the fact that you had left.God loves Elijah too much and He fetched him away before his death.I 'm sure God too,love you too deep and wanted to let you have good rest after so many years of reaping of harvest.

Your impact to Kluang community will never be forgotten.What is left undone is already being continued.Dont worry.I believe there are still a lot of people who saw the vision where God placed it in their hearts and continue to fight this journey.

Though you had left for a year,you are still dearly missed.Looking forward to the day that we meet again.

P/S: why I didnt take any photo with you?I cant find any now anymore...