改变

“。。。只要心意更新而变化，叫你们查验何为神的良善，纯全可喜悦的旨意。” 罗马书 12。1

祢说
旧的已去 新的已来
祢说
要相信祢的大能更新我们
祢说
做祢的门徒 背起十架 跟随祢

我要
用心去改变
我要
让祢的活水再次充满着我 浇灌着我
我要
相信
当一切可能到达极限时 就是祢的不可能的大能运行的时候

赞美祢的名，荣耀你的名！～

Dipersiasuikan~

Tat friday i went over to kajang to stay at my leader suue mian's house.As we are going into the lift,my another leader,yimfong accidentally dropped a key which was holding in her right finger because she used that hand to hold on the key which was going to close."king! king!kiang!kiang!" So,the key dropped all the way in the "celah" of the lift...Though we had used torch light to shine but we couldn't find any key..

Monday morning,due to two of them had to work,me,kia ing and wan jen volunteered ourselves to go find the key.we decided to find it floor by floor."which lift we used the other day?"I asked."erm..I think it's this one la."Kia Ing replied.So we went in lift A,startting from floor G stopping by every floor to look for the key..

Every floor we stopped,wan jen would kept pressing the open button while me and kia ing will find..We squarted,we lied we sit...our faces nearly kissed the floor~So we went all the way till floor 10..As the door opened,two security guard standing infront of us.Kia Ing still sit on the floor.

"AH Moi,buat apa kat sini main main lift?" Oh sweat!main -main?if got time we would go to sleep rather than main main here la...However,i din blurted it out...and..we were being "escorted" to the management room at ground floor.

The lady in the room was rude and didn't really bother about our losing keys.We knew that is useless to ask for her help.So,after apologizing,we went back.Oh dear,We dont have the cards to go inside the gate!~AGain,we waited till some one to come out and only we went in...

We took the lift beside(Lift B) to go up.This Wanjen said,"Hey,i remembered that day i was pressing button like this ler.not like that just now!" *fainted* O...all this while we have been searching the wrong lift and kena diperxiasuikan oso....haha=p

Anyway,the key was still yet to be found.So,we decided to take action again...Hmm..how bout midnight today?>.<

One day trip to Putrajaya~

woo~last nite at KTSN this sem....hmm. thanks to Yim Fong, we managed to go to Putrajaya to test the dish which will be served in Malaysia National Conference..haha...5 of us,irrelevant little...with whole bunch of pastor's office stuff and pastors...eating together...hahaha=pwao~

see..the water bottle oso will feel cold~

Then,we took a walk around the conference center..all i can is it is HUGE!from one end to the another end..have to walk a long long way ~so cant afford to lose way o..if not,maybe sesat inside cant come out edi..=p

see how long is the escalator?=)

at night,went to Adam's house for caroling,joining in as an "passerby"..haha=p..felt the atmosphere of christmas is just around the corner...All those songs reminded me of past years where I joined the caroling..all the fun I had....Hmmm...too bad this time no chance to join the fun..maybe...shall I go back to Klg to sing carols along with my youth group?hahaha=)

What would you do if tomorrow ends?

Just watched 2012 today!Indeed it is a great movie to ponder with.The value of mankind,how unpredictable and beyond control of man.It cant be denied this time will come,it is just the matter of time and we will never know when it is,not tribe of MAYA,not even Jesus,but only GOD the FATHER knows.In mathew 24:36 "But about the day or hour no one knows.not even the angels in heaven,nor the Son,but only the Father."

It really challenged me.What would you do if you are one of the victims in that movie?If you had known the end of the day is coming,what would I do?Will I still get hold of my books studying?Will I go shopping?Will I still sitting right here typing my blog?When it comes,no one can escape just as the tsunami swept across the land,even the physician who first discovered this phenomenon died.Despite his great contribution,he cant save himself after all.This is life.Unpredictable yet painful.

I really moved by the spirit of the father in the movie,for his love for his family.countless time he risked his life to bring his family out of the danger and its amazing..even for Yuri,the billionaire who spent one billion just to board on the ark,sacrificed himself at the last moment of his life,giving out all his strength to push his son unto the ark.It's amazing!This is the time where we see the true self.I cant guarantee I have the boldness to give my life in exchange with others,but it really pulled me into deep thought.Didn't Jesus give His life in exchange to pay our sin and for our freedom?

The bible says it clearly in mathew 24 :6-8 "6You will here wars and rumours of wars,but see to it you are not alarmed.Such things must happen,but the end is still to come.7Nation rise against nation,kingdom against kingdom.There will be famine and earthquakes in various place.8All this are the beginning of birth pains."

Didn't wars in every corner on this earth nowadays?The international portion of newspaper always filled with news of wars.Nation against nation,kingdom against kingdom.Where there is war,there will involve two or even more nations,killing one another.Famine and earthquakes ....Aren't they happening more and more frequently?Almost everyday we can see such news in the newspaper!

This is only part of the signs that was shown by God to Mathew of the end time.It's getting near,but we don't really know when.What would you do then IF tommorow is the end time?

So,be ready friends,because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him.(mathew 24:44)

I love my friends.I love my family.Just as Jesus loves you.Think,what you will do if tomorrow ends.

驾车惊魂计！

今天中午乘出门前练习了一下驾车，那我就驾着小红在kt里绕啊绕的。。佳音就坐在我旁边。。驾着驾着，雨势慢慢变大，到最后，大到根本是看不见前面的路。。心想，还是驾去食堂避一避雨好了！就在驾着的途中，突然间，砰！好大一声，把我们两吓了一大跳！好大的一棵满粗树枝准准打在我的车镜上！感谢上帝，幸好没事，镜子也没破。真不敢想像，如果打下来的是一根树干，而非树枝，我看那，小红准被砸扁，我和佳音变肉酱了～

我的假期？

说实话，一开始，当迎风要求我留下来帮忙MNC的时候，我很不愿意，我很挣扎。因为每一次看见我的朋友一放假就冲回家去，归心似箭的我，何尝不是呢？但是，神再次的挑战了我。虽然奉献是痛苦的，但愿你的名被赞扬！于是，我留了下来。。。

感谢上帝，让我留了下来！玩够了以后，我真正开始了我的假期。首先，与教会的朋友跑到了金沙河，抱了一把吉它回来，他的价钱让我很心痛，但是，就当作是一种投资吧！我“男朋友” 不乖，一直走音，幸好我的小组有免费的tuner帮我调。这是我回到最初的爱的第一步。。心里暗暗向自己说，一定要成功！

礼拜天，去做礼拜。牧师的传道再次地提醒了我，我一直以来很忽略的一个方面！仿佛从睡梦中被点醒一般。。晚上，在我主长家过了一夜，他教了我们吉它，才知道原来吉它一点都不容易弹！听了一千八百遍，始终听不出个头绪。。是不是我音乐天分不够吗？不过，是应该学习阿杜，坚持到底～！

礼拜一，5。50 am 起身，回到宿舍，就去跑步～是时候把疯狂那几天吃的给烧了吧！过后，教会一个弟兄专程到宿舍教我，佳音，秀琼吉它～哈哈！他真的很厉害罗～换了好几种弹法，才找到最适合我们最简单的弹法。。整个过程好好笑喔！（佳音在嘛！〕有学了好多，但是，我太慢了啦。一直抓不到感觉。。。

晚上，第一次出席祷告会。心里的负担，通通地转告给上帝知道。这个祷告会真是让我再一次地体会到与上帝关系密切的重要性。。

礼拜二，又跑步去了！为什么我假期比我上课时还健康？哈哈～中午帮忙处理事物，对着电脑，看着excel，才暗暗庆幸我以后不是坐在办公室的人。真受不了！对着那密密麻麻一千六百多个名字的名单，看得我眼冒星星～

晚上，赶去了praise and worship jamming。不是唱歌的料的我，也硬着头皮上台高歌。key对的了没有不说，有没有走音。。。哈哈～可想而知。。应该多去唱点卡拉ok..

第三天了。加油～

A visit to EYE DEPARTMENT ~

I went to eye department of HKL for check up today.Hmm....the receptionist was not very polite and din't give a very clear instruction to me where should i go exactly.Waiting blankly and finally i was called for visual acuity testing.Very fast,and sorry to say ,not profesionnal la..

Stepping into the ophthalmologist department,I saw lots of different people sitting there,with different emotion on their faces..Now only i realised that thre are actually lots and lots of people in Malaysia who are facing eye problems.And they desperately need help.As an optometrist,what I can do is really limited as I cant provide treatment for them.The most I can do is to check and diagnose for them.....Suddenly my mood turns grey*.*

However,think another way round,since I am already in this field,I want and I have to make use of what we had learnt to help those in need.Maybe,there are still have tons of people who don't really know the importance of taking their eyes,OR they don't have the ability to do so.I want to believe much I still can do...After all,I don't want to end up to be an "optician" in a spectacle shop.This is what i fear of now as sometime man has no choice but bow to reality of life.

Anyhow,just do my best to graduate first before thinkimg the next step to go...

By the way,I went in for 40 minutes,30 minutes was used to wait and 10 minutes used for check up,5 for VA testing,5 for meeting the doctor.In fact,he used 30 seconds to settle my case,by saying for a further check up...and my check up is 23 Feb 2010!Ooo.........ok...Kind of lazy to go anymore...just let my eyelid be as what it is ba...:)

A touched suprise!~

First day after exam~
Cant wait for long...Headed to Sg Wang right after our last paper..
Haha......Finally.the suppressed shopping gene finally being expressed out lo~
That's not the main point..

At night,we went to setapak to have dinner with my coursemates...
Well,when we reached there,Lynn wanted to go buy tong shui...So we teman her go lo...But I saw a guy who looks exactly like AH MAI standing at a corner of the shop wor...

So I shouted,"hey!look!Its Ah Mai!"

But weirdly,nobody agreed to me that the guy is Ah Mai.All said my eye got prob recognised wrong people ady.I dont doubted ah..coz i have aging eyes @.@ haha =p Well,coz the incidents of recognising wrong ppl did not happen one time liao...So i just followed them lo...As I passed by the guy,he faced backward,not moving...hmm..weird."It's real Ah Mai ah...got such person looks like him meh?"

Well well,after all our coursemates arrived,we had our dinner...great fellowship together...^^
After chit chatting suddenly they sang "birthday song" wor with cake held from the waiter...
WoW~I was so suprised ! I never thought they were going to celebrate my bday just now.Hmm.....Very very touched by their effort to tipu me..Hmm...Thanks ya you guys..ah mai,yun,may,lao po,lynn..for planning all this....i really really touched....haha=p

Thx to all the coursemates who joined us and sang bday song.....thanks...love you guys so much!

Btw,it's proven that my eyes is still "young" coz that guy standing there is AH MAI....*Ah Mai,luckily you didnt vibrate that time,If not,I would be sure is you...haha=p*

sorry~

Did I really say something wrong?I'm giving constructive opinion out of good intention hoping to really help...who knows...Is it becoz the way I voiced it too over?If it is,I really want to apologise as I never have any intention to step on people to glorify myself.All I wish to do is to encourage the people around me..Maybe the way I talked hurt you somewhere somehow,please forgive me,this is the real last thing i will ever do.I will reflect carefully what i had did and change.

树欲静而风不止，
子欲养而亲不在。
人往往都是要在失去后才学会珍惜。
我真的是被吓醒了
亲爱的外婆，
你等我，一定要等我回去。
不论你变得多么的难以伺候，
我一定会好好孝顺你。


愿神保守你，赐你平安，长命百岁！

Never ending Grace

My heart is shedding tears
My soul is hurt
My world falls apart
My sorrows overflows
Why are you cast down o my soul?

Walking through the valley
I saw beam of light
Shining through my face
saying

"My grace is sufficient for you,
for MY power is made perfect in your weakness."

You hold me
IN the palm of your hand
I know that You are the Faithful
Your name is Comforter
who discerns my sorrow.

WHat else can I say
but to thank YOU?
Forgive me Lord,
Rise me up again
to soar with You in eagle's wing.
I want to fly high
with liberty
with victory
with faith.

Reflection~

Is it that difficult to practise out what you had learnt?O yes,I can tell you absolutely YES.It's not like the mathematics where you learnt the formula and apply it in the questions.Life is much more complicated than the toughest exam in the world.Its about experiencing,without knowing which "theory" applicable to your life.Wait a minute,before that,what you need to do is to TRY AND ERROR,and sometimes,not everything that you got throughout years will benefits your life.

That's why I say,life,is tough.Where we deals with human race,it gets tougher.IT must be HANDLE WITH CARE,in avoidance of any broken of glass heart.This is tough as along the way you hold ppl's hearts in your palm cautiously,somewhere somehow,you will let yours to fall freely from your palm.What to do with that then?WIll there be another person coming to stick my heart together again?

Temptation.This is the reality of life.Cruel but true.Its tough to have clean hand and pure heart in this polluted world.But somehow,I have found some true care and love in this cold world..Man is just so easily attracted by the benefits that ppl gave.ALL the same.I stand in a position where I cant see clearly.I want to walk further to see clearly.Be cautious not to washed away by it.

It takes time to learn.Something we had already known long before but its just so hard to master.However,put effort to it ,it shall be succeed.So i will try.Try to do more and amend my mistakes.Correct me,if i had done anything wrong....

THis is just daily reflection of my recent life.