离愁

再过不到二四十小时，我即将离开我的家乡，回到我的岗位了。其实跟之前没什么不一样的，但是，不知怎的，这一次，竟然有一股很强很强的离愁笼罩着我，难掩心中的难过。我不明白为什么这一次我的心会这么沉重地离开居銮，踏上追求知识的路途。那么的沉重，那么的沉重。。。我快窒息了。

或许，有好多未知数在我家酝酿，我不放心离开。或许，我害怕，面对未来。或许。。。太多的或许了。我不愿再去追寻原因。我心系这个家，我爱的家。不论我多远，你们永远是在我心头上的，离不开的亲人。

Amazing Grace

Have you ever heard of the song AMAZING GRACE?No matter whether you are Christian or not,I believe this would be a touching song..But do you know how this song came by?
This is a song written by John Newton .. IN 18th century of England, It's a era of reformation ... There are unstable everywhere, children lost their education opportunities, becoming child force for cheap pay, poor people everywhere, the elite oppressed the poors .. They were selling dark skinned people overseas to become slaves.
John was borned in such an era.He worked his way out to help the oppressed.He hated the slave system so much!He supported Sir William Wilberforce to fight for the right to release the slaves!By the grace of God,at 1787,Wilberforce successfully released the first badge of oppressed slave!Thus,He wrote this hymn.The story of Sir John Newton were too much to tell,this is just one of them.
This is the version where a singer,Christ Tomlin sang...which touched lots of people.Hope you guys enjoy the meaning of the words and the song.=)


AMAZING GRACE ( CHRIST TOMLIN)
Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost,
but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

My chains are goneI've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy rains
Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbear to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine

老友好好

今天见到了老朋友。。终于有机会三个好姐妹在一起喝茶聊天了。真的超开心的！听了去了外国的朋友她在那里经历的种种，我们听到瞠目结舌！短短的一年多里，她经历了还真不少！搬了不下五次家，保证金被骗，遇到古古怪怪的房东，我们听了都为她捏了一把冷汗！人真的是要经过历练才会成长。不要看她去外国读书很幸福，一个人在那里的日子可不好过～
唉～突然有种事过境迁的感觉。。。大家都变了。。。变成熟了，变美丽了，变动人了，变坚强了。。。为什么我觉得我仍没变呢？！唉～～～～～～～仍然软弱，仍然迟钝，仍然寂寞。。新年新希望～真的要加油提升自己罗！

逃

好久不见。今天赫然在街上看见了你，好熟悉的脸庞。看你的那一眼，你，老了好多。可是，最后我还是选择了逃避。我不知道为什么我那么的怕见到你。我不知道。加快脚步逃离，深怕你看见我。迅速地钻入人群中，深怕你叫我的名。为什么？我问自己，为什么要跑？这或许是一个永远没有答案的问题吧！

~4 Years~

4 years.Coming into 4 years.I have known you almost 4 years.Comparing to 20 years,it isn't long,its just 1/5 of my life.However,this 4 years is the most meaningful years I've ever had,the most ups and downs I've ever experienced and the most gratefulness I've ever said.Looking back of the way of how I got knew of you....I would smile.It's not that tough as others..but it took me many years to really know you and accept you.

I admit its not a smooth path to get along with you.most of the time,I would lost in the midst of multitude.I would stumbled.I would let down of you.To my suprise,you never let go of me.Instead,again and again,you held me up gently,covered me with your love.How could this be?I asked myself,"why?why?I dont deserve!" Through it all, when I was almost gave up you,you halted me,saying ," Come back,it's ok that you made wrong,I'll forgive you."

Do you know that what made me attracted to you?Your forgiveness.You forgives.Your love.You never stop loving me.Your faithfulness.Even when I failed you,you never let me go.Your gentleness.When I was heart broken,you touched me.When tears rolled down my cheeks,so soft,so gently you wiped it away.Your grace.If werent for your grace,I wouldnt be what I am today.

Through out the 4 years,what you have given to me had exceed much much more than my heart can contained.4 years,It's time for the little caterpillar to turn into a beautiful butterfly.It's time for the tree to bear fruit.I'll make it a lil cry in my heart.I love you.

Weird dream~

First time remember my dream eh.So I better record it quickly..

Everything was so familiar...Why form 6 ?The scene went back to form 6 time...But the place happened was in THE STORE! Hmm...I saw lotsa old friends walking around..I saw lotsa MPPPU board members walking,happily chit chatting....just as the school just reopened~The classroom was above The Store...o....As for me?

Since when I became MPPPU board member le?I wore my coat and walking on the street.I even stopped by the bus station to buy cha guo for breakfast...>.< The kind May like to eat one..haha....no more long skirt but short one...haha...the weirdest thing was I actually saw my math teacher was hosting a diamond related event in The Store!hahaha......

Weird dream indeed..ANyone can interprete for me??=="

MPPPU = Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar Pra U.For UKM-ers this is something like JAKSA :)

凋零

曾几何时，
我们是无所不谈的，
是交心的。

现在，
即想深谈，
顿也觉得障碍重重。

将来呢？

能回到以前吗？
我深知，
这不可能。

心情交错，
有苦难言。
谁又明白呢？

那痛，
是有种被骗了的痛，
伤口不深，
微微的，
但久久不愈合。
偶尔，
仍一阵一阵地刺痛。

微笑着
来掩饰我的痛
等待它愈合的那一天。

告诉我

那凋零了的花

能够再崭放异彩吗？

其实我也不是那么有耐心～

一直以为我的耐性是不错的。谁知今天才知道我错了！

我舅舅今天带了我两个小表弟回来。哥哥是个智障儿，除了啊啊地喊之外，就是爱吃自己手指了。弟弟活泼可爱。哥哥不断地在喊，不停的喊，手一直把抓到的东西往嘴里塞。好久不见他们的我，顿时显得有些手忙脚乱地照顾哥哥。好声好气，大声哄骂，他都不依，拼命的喊，因为他根本听不明白。我的手被他抓到破皮了。顿时才发现，原来，我一点儿耐性也没有。

小表弟真的把我弄得束手无策。我根本不知道该怎么样让他安静下来，不在咬东西。我索性跟弟弟玩，因为弟弟很听话，是个正常的小孩。这就是人现实的一面。哈哈！这时，我才突然发现，我舅舅和舅母好伟大！要养育一个有智力障碍的孩子，需要的耐性比一般父母大多了！我那短短的一个小时就没法子，要放弃了。我舅舅舅母竟然把他带大！我想，这是成为父母后才能拥有的耐性吧！

这让我体会到其实我是很幸福的。健健康康，身体无缺，又有那么关心我的父母（虽然罗嗦了一点！哈哈！〕这是最大的幸福了！

至于耐性嘛，是要磨出来的吧！路还长着呢！

Declaration of 21~!

Hurray!I am 21 at last!

Well~21 years old..I'm 21!

It is indescribable to become an adult.

Well,I know nothing much has changed,

but the significance of turning 21 still sounds in my heart.

Turning 21 , there are 3 wishes which i have made

1) ********

2) ********

3) ********

Of course cant tell,if not how it will come true?hahaha=)

After all,my greatest wish is that all my dearest friends and family are saved,safe and sound always,with joy and health be with them!What else can I request of Him but this?