梦？！

压力大过山。很沮丧。但是，今天我登陆这里，不是要述说我多么沮丧了（想必你们一定是看到显了==”）。

最近，我碰到了一些事情，让我觉得很奇妙。

两个月前，一位朋友做了一个梦，梦到了关于我和一位人物。她很兴奋的描述了他梦境给我听。听了过后，我大笑了三声；哈哈哈！来应酬她。这是一个很好的梦，但，那个时候，谁会把它放在心里。。

两个礼拜前，和另一位朋友闲聊。他突然间告诉我她两年前做了一个关于我的梦。又来？！听他的任务描诉过后，我突然想起了那两个月前的梦。巧合的是，怎么人物特征这么接近？而且发生情况类似。。啊，哎呀，碰巧罢了！

几天前，读书好累人，又和另一位朋友聊天。（哈哈，对不起，朋友多了一点点。。。）这次，不是聊梦了。而是有带点瞎扯的成分聊我们的未来会是怎么样。聊着聊着，这。。。这。。。也未免太奇怪了吧！怎么。。怎么。。他对我的人生“预言的人生”（白日梦罢了～＝ｐ）某些情节故事人物。。和那两个梦竟然有一些些吻合！

奇怪了。太奇怪了！那，人们常说美梦成真。也有人常说梦，和现实是相反的。那么，该信谁呀？那么多的巧合，真的只是碰巧而已吗？那，梦见得梦，会有成真的一天吗？希望如此。哈哈哈。只好对自己大笑三声吧。为紧张压力的考试期间带来一些些的缓冲。

梦做完了，眼前的书本可不假了～

等待

考试即将开始。征战即将展开了！
虽然还没开始，就已经战败了一场，但感谢神能够让我重考！=p
其实我已经开始等待了。。。

等待着考试结束的那一天；
等待着搭巴士回家的那一天；
等待着宣布假期开始的那一刻；
等待着。。。一个梦成真的那一刻；
也等待着。。。一个戏言的承诺实现的那一刻。

等待是漫长且痛苦的，但我相信是绝对值得的！=D

Blessed be Your name.

Finally my first clinical practical exam is over. Well, I didn't do well in one of the station. Fail?I don't know. I had done my best. And I want to uphold to God for You had said that, " Your grace is sufficient for me." Are You to blame because I did not do well for not did not watch over me? No, not at all. Never thought of that. I know, whether in joy or pain, You are faithful still. In fact, Your blessing never stop showered upon me. I know You will not let me bear beyond what I can bear. Yes, I was sad after coming out of the station but Your peace, be with me. I still have a life time to soar with You, Lord!=) No matter pass or fail, I know You have the best plan for me!=p

Though there's pain in the offering, blessed be Your name!

留级离我真的那么近？

在三个月以前，从没有想过，顺利毕业，会是一个问题吗？从没发现过，不能毕业被留级距离我竟然是这么靠近，时时刻刻都掉进那级。现在，我知道了。

虽然每天活在教授的恐吓中，动不动有用fail来恐吓我们，听起来，要fail实在很容易！但是，日子还是要过，试还是要考。怕，是一定的，但感谢上帝，在我怕到发抖时，让我心里有你给的平安。再怎么艰难，你的仗和你的柄必指引我。

实习考试那么多的未知数，谁知道我们的命运又会如何呢？加油加油加油！

感性？

今天在向朋友学折纸玫瑰，一位男同学见了，就说：“你们好感性哦，都什么时候了，竟然有闲情逸致在这里学折玫瑰？”

哈哈哈。大家都笑了。难道考试到了就什么都不做吗？每天吭书吗？话说回来，感性。这两个字，我觉得还蛮适合我的，甚至使所有的女人吧！但随着日渐成熟，感性，也慢慢转变了。

以前的我，会把表情写在脸上。感动，生气，伤心。。。说的话，也自以为是很感性却不然的。现在的我，学习着要内敛一点。其实啊，一点点小小的动作，一封短讯，一个小小的举动，甚至是一句话，都能让我感动得一塌糊涂。但是，不流泪不代表我不感动，不流露出来不代表我是冷血的。。就是因为想要把每一份感动深深藏在心底，不容许它流露出去。如果真的难掩这份感动，我想，我也只会用文字来表达。那，这，是感性的另一层次吗？

感性，不是情绪化。感性，不是emo。感性，使每一个人，男人，女人，与生俱来的，只不过看你有没有发掘出来，把它变成你的魅力。

Unforgetable 10.10.10

Just back from HOPE Kuantan 10th anniversary mission support! Wow WOw WOW truly this time i had a real unforgettable trip!=) I was so blessed and glad to serve together with so many brothers and sisters....almost half of the team made up of visitors and first timer in mission trip.So proud of them!=p

Well, it was a very unforgettable trip for me, as I had given my one of my "first time" here.All glory to Him who strengthen me and give me confidence to sing. Thanks to the brothers and sisters' encouragement, correction, help, in sms, words, songs..they meant a lot to me. Thank God!Till the end, I don't know whether I had sang out of tune or not, but I knew that I already sang out my lung le...No one is perfect but God has made the unperfect perfect!Enjoy working together with the team!

Wouldn't want to elaborate more here, as I had too much things to say, too much joy to share. All I can say is I truly could feel the family spirit among the team this time. From the beginning of the journey to Kuantan till On the way back, we never stop laughing. The happiness and joy came from the hearts. So do our hearts of serving. Indeed, this time round, I know what it is to be meant by " It is the family spirit that determines the activity, not the activity determines the family spirit!"

To the team, YF, ALEX, KIA ING, STEPHENIE, YEEJING, KAREN, KOK WEI, AHBOY, WAN JEN, JIA XIN, CHING YEE, CHING CHING, SING NIE, MING BONG....all i could say is BRAVO!really blessed by all of you, somewhere somehow.....the time we spent, the joke we laughing away, the work that we did, the mafia that we played....

I love this family so much!!

Depressed dispensing

Every Tuesday is a stressful day for me.Ya, indeed, it is. 2 practicals have to be done continuously. Both are stressful,but if you force me to choose, I would say that dispensing the spectacle lens is much more stressful la!

Haiz..I think I not talented in cutting lens....It took me soOOooOoOooo long to finish cutting a lens. While I was still excited to check my product, only I realise that, I had cut the lens wrongly! wrong axis la, senget la, wrong power la, off axis la....haiz....Some are rily silly mistakes, yet I'm still doing it...

Sitting in front of focimeter, listening to Pn Maria praising others, " wow, this is perfect!" " this is nice!I'm going to give u 9 out of 10!" and Im keep stucking at the power of the lens...aiyak....really pek chek sometimes! for one side of lens, I had cut at least 4 times and above! and is not perfect still.What to do?NOt gifted la!

Really depressed in ophthalmic lab sometimes.As others can do it so fast and so well. Me? every lens I do is the wrong one.AFter long suffering, only manage to produce my bifocal lens.

Anyway, everybody need encouragement la.It really lifted me up. Thanks to some of my lab mates, let me scold ah, vent my pek chek emotion ah, still willingly to help me...hahaha~=) It's an interesting thing to learn, but I not going to fall in love with it!NEVER!

当失望来袭？

人啊，难免会有失落的时候。
兴奋的心情，顿时掉入谷底。
失望之极。

失望的，是看不上我的能力。
我本来以为，我能，但，看似，我不能了。（家好月圆吗？！）
失望的，是点燃了我希望，又毁灭了我的希望。
最失望的，就是对我的不信任。

但是还是要谢谢这些失望，让我的干眼症得到了一些滋润，让我学会了，该更信靠神多过人。

世上的人，必会有让人失望的时候，包括我自己在内，幸好，我还有上帝，一位很信实，能够让我依靠的神。对，抖一抖身子，振作起来，笑一笑，再出发。=)

十全十美。。

10月10日，关丹希望教会即将庆祝十周年纪念了。

这么隆重热闹的庆典，当然少不了我们啦～这一次，轮到了我们ukm小组前往支持。即ｍｉｓｓｉｏｎｃａｍｐ后，好一些学妹们还蛮兴奋再回到关丹，一起共庆这“十全十美”的一天～因为人手不足，我。。被安排到了助唱得服侍。天啊？！从来不会唱歌的我，从来没有上过台助唱得我竟然被安排在这么重要的场合献出我的第一次！超紧张的！真怕我给搞砸了咧。。。五音不全的我，到底能够胜任这一岗位吗？哈哈～把人家的十全十美变成九全九美？！靠神的恩典吧。。。啦啦啦啦啦啦。。。现在开始喝蜜糖来得及吗?

十月

挥别九月，迎接了十月的到来。时光飞逝，九月，对我留下的，就是让我浪费掉的那近两个悠闲星期的假期，一个让我难忘的营会，几个让我痛苦的考试。。。除此之外，我真的没有记忆了。

感觉我的呼吸即将越来越仓促，越来越困难了。教授的“恐吓”，实习考试的一次定成败的压力，theory上的不足，期中考带来的失败让我的压力又上升了一层。真的觉得头发越掉越多啦！

虽然口头上常说成绩不代表全部，但最近，我却惊觉到：我的成绩，并不是我一个人的事，而是关心到其他人的眼睛！如果再不认真读，下学期，第四年，将来，要怎么样来面对病人？问题是处在了我的学习态度上，不够积极了吗？对！虽然到了最后，成绩的的确确不会是我的大学生涯的全部，但愿这惊觉能够让我更认真地去学习知识，没有A没关系，但必须吸收运用吧！

十月了，考试月，不停止，再加油。要认真，要认真，要认真！