Can you feel the love tonight

Touching me deeply.

同类

人，真的是这世界上最难搞的动物。。。

无奈，我也是同类。

所以，再难搞，也要爱他们。

Lessons of life.

It has been a while that I did not really post any new post here. Everytime I thought of posting, I cant express my overwhelmed feeling through words. It's indescribable. .. .

I've learned a lot;

Learned to be patient, for some people are really testing on it;

Learned to forgive, for some hurt that caused without the person realising;

Learned to release grace, for our God is graceful God;

Learned to sacrifice, for what is worth for.

Learned to smile, hiding the sorrow behind;

Learned to laugh, despite stressful situation;

Learned to give thanks and treasure, for the thing, the loved ones that are still with me;

Learned to let go, for holding too tightly what does not belongs to me.

Learned to set priority, for there are too many errands need to be attended to;

Learned to see the big picture, for the big picture lead me to the destination.

Learned to be still, to wait upon His will;

Learned to remember, My Lord and God never forsake me.

Frankly, sorrows overtook my joy these two months. Some people who had left footprint my life left this world. They caused me to think what is the meaning of life over and over again. However, God has turned the mourning into dancing and praising again.

When the rain stops, there will be rainbow. When I see the rainbow, I know that His covenant is with me. He will wipe away the tears and brings joy in new beginning.

现在我才知道，最伤人的话，并不是当面对着你直截了当的评语，而是在你背后的冷嘲热讽。不只伤人，还很失望听到不应该被听到的话。

想

快一个礼拜了。生活似乎回到了忙忙碌碌的日子，忙得晕头转向。似乎也慢慢接受了你已离开的事实。偶尔会在clinic时突然想起你。但是，心情已不再那么沉重，悲伤也不再吞噬着我了。因为，我知道你拿似孩子的信心让你现在安息在天父那里了。这是安慰我的事。还是会想起你。就把你放在心中吧。

加油！

痛

这是你离开我们的第二天。在报纸上刊登了你的新闻。好痛。好痛。看见你的名字出现在新闻里，真的好痛。

打开电脑，看见了我们一起到金马伦，怡保，槟城旅游的照片，看见了你。一时间，脑海里从满了你的脸。感觉你还在。

虽然我们认识不久，但，现在我真的好难过。心好痛。好想念你。我会永远怀念你。在天父里好好休息吧。

安息吧。。

你离开了。这么突然。你还那么年轻，却纵身跃下。。。

接到你离开的消息时，我真的是好震惊。为什么？为什么你一时想不开做傻事？你是那么乖巧又聪明的一位学弟，只不过，你生病了，不愿吃药。听到你的消息时，我心真的好痛，好痛。。

回想起当初你与我们同在时，从你脸上看见了那份喜悦，从你口中说出牧者对你来说是多么重要，与你聊天时的种种。之后你却突然避开我们，不愿再参加我们了，遇见了，你也退避三尺。我们和你身边的人真的疏忽了吗，竟没察觉到你退缩人群的心理，竟是你走向不归路的开始。。。如果当初有人花时间不断开导你，带你接受治疗，或许。。。可是，如果， 以再也没有如果了。。。

明煌，在主里安息吧。

等候

信心祷告

耐心等候

耶和华是我的供应者，应许我所求的。

静候耶和华的旨意。。。