When I woke up in the morning,I think of you..
Getting out of the bed,I think of how pinel gland secrete melatonin to adjust my biolical clock…
When I walked out of my room,I think of how muscle contraction and relaxation works…
When I am in the bathroom,i though of how the water influence my body fluid,electrolyte and acid base balance…
When I am in the toilet,I thought of urine formation…
When I am pangsai-ing,I thought of urea cycle…
When I am eating my bread,I thought of how to digest u…
When I drink my milo,I thought of how it goes through my stomach,into small intestine,into large intestine…
When I walk down the stair case,I thought of the angonist,antagonist effect…
When I am grasping for air,I thought of how air goes into pharynx,larynx and trachea…
When I am look at the computer,I thought of how my eyes can work…
When I go to café,I thought of how olfactory receptor in my nose works…
When I eat,I thought of how gustatory sense works…
When I am full,I wonder parasympathetic system makes me feel sleepy…

Countless days and nights(though three weeks only),I thought of you…open my eye is you,close my eyes,I will see you in my dreams…Now,FINALLY,I have to say “bye-bye” to you……listen,its bye bye,not “see you” coz I don’t want to see you again…(but ur relative can accept la)…

Good Bye~ANATOMY,PHYSIOLOGY,BIOCHEMISTRY!!!SO long,farewell and take care!!!

放马过来吧！

“If my God is for us,who can be against us?”Romans 8:31

你来一科，我就拼一科，你来两科，我就拼一双！终于，我把两科很重很重的科目给干掉了。今天踏出考场那一刻，松了一大口气，也不管我写对写错，圈对圈错。。。考试还没结束呢！才刚开始而已！但不知怎么的，从开始考试以来，我都没有很紧张，反而有一股无比的平静荡漾在我心里。我知道是祢。进考场前那十五分钟，祢的喜乐溢满我的心，那时，我有股冲动，想要大声唱歌赞美祢！就算坐在考场里，我也不会慌，因为我知道，你真的没有离开我。我又找回我在stpm时那股平安。感谢祢！祢让我知道，到了最后，不管准备多充足也好，不充足也好，祢给的平安智慧最重要。但我不会就此找借口不读书，反而，我会更加努力，把我的成绩献给祢，荣耀祢的名。

Chill out?BURNT OUT????Help~~~

Burnt out!I can believe it!Today we actually spent whole day in JPAM to undergo simulation..Felt like time flowed back to the time when I was in National Service…

Well,I must say,this simulation did not come in right time…They didn’t care for our opposition for the reason exam is just 2 days time! So, all of us forced to go VERY unwillingly(partly because of the tips they were going to give us also)…

Anyway,since we went le,we just want to enjoy ourselves lo,no matter how tough it was.Why made ourselves so unhappy ler?Exactly the same while I was in NS camp..wow…PT 10…long long time didn’t play this thing le…There came shocking news,ujian kawad.WHAT?ujian kawad?apa lah…didn’t inform us beforehand…gave us almost 1hour to prepare…ai sheh…malu la…coz ..know la,without practice is …
(but we didn’t get the last place la finally,hehe)

Erm,then we entered into practical session.How to fight fire and carry victim…quite a bored one as I had learnt before le…but with different people, so learn with different feeling lo….actually quite fun la…

Now,the most irritating part came.SUN BURNT!It has been a long long long long time that I been exposed under sunlight for so long le….eish…turned me darker…ah…I don’t want go to ns time’s skin colour….my nose already turned black le….how…..*sob*

心。日记

忙忙碌碌
早起迟睡
到了夜深人静的时候
独自一人
坐在桌前
细细回想
这一天到底
做了什么
才惊觉
原来
什么也没完成。
又累了
睡吧！

sad....

The 1st shocking news after my return from holiday…WYE LI……is leaving!Oh no…though I knew bout it long ago,and I already expected of it long ago,deep in my heart,I was hoping that she will change her mind…Anyway,she has made her decision.haiz…besides long haiz..what can I say?It saddens me.true.Y li,do u know that u are an important friend in my opto life?I used to have you around…ur encouragement,ur support,ur advice,ur contributions…In fact,I found that we have some similarities in our thinking…I’m really glad to have found you,who I can talk bout something which I cant talk to other ppl…But you are leaving.Y li,I really cant bear to let u go…but for ur future,I will still support you to chase after ur dreams…

rekindle...

How time flies! It has been almost a year that I left my school which I had stayed for SEVEN years!Ever since after my form six,indeed, I lived a different life that I never live before.àI went on a short mission trip.--> I worked in shalom.-->I took care of the kids.-->I tutored two15 years old teenagers which could drive me crazy.-->I met with new people.-->I left Kluang.-->I was “landed” in a totally new place called KL.Sounds like I never had some time to settle down and recharge of myself….The flow of all these events is so smooth and continually,without giving me a chance to reset my thoughts and my mind…

In such a time like this,I fell away.I fell short of His glory.I stopped stepping forward.I don’t know why.The fire came in and out.It’s my fault.I just felt dryness in me…It’s a very serious problem,I know.Deep inside my heart,I was crying out to Him.However…,my flesh is weak.My mind was making battle everyday in me,asking me to give up.I am sick of this.I had enough!Hyprocitely,I appeared to be okay and good,because of my pride.

The situation turned worse when I came to KL.I had made a covenant with God.I don’t want to leave Him.I want to be fruitful in Him.But somehow,I cant.I found out that I breathe the different air in KL.Im suffocating.Dealing with all sorts of problems made me forget to spend time with Him.My life turned dry.Everytime when Holy Spirit tried to minister to me,I gave up the chance.I didn’t treasure.I washed away by the trend of the world.I cant stand firm in Christ.I share goodness,I became a giver,but sometimes I’m not happy,I’m not cheerful.There is bitterness in me that causes me to not to potray God’s love in my life.

I didn’t see Him,but trying to handle everything using my own wisdom.How silly am I!Till the end,I ended up to be extremely tired.Especially after Pastor Sunther’s death,the hit to me was great. I couldn’t accept the fact that he left us.I don’t know why God allowed such a godly man to leave the earth so early.Since then,I realized that I actually starting to fall away…I put down my bible. I stop praying for others.I felt that my mind was controlling me deliberately to stop seeing him.Oh my goodness!it’s terrible.everything that happened around me could aroused my anger very easily. I lost temper. I complained. The bitterness is in me,until I cant chase it away. I discovered that I deliberately let go of myself to do things I am not supposed to do.

God is gracious.No matter in what situation,He still cares for me.I had backsliddened.But God pulled me back again.It’s still in progress…humbly come before Him to confess my sin.I picked up my bible again.Though the dryness is still in me,I want to continue this journey.I want to read His word because of my desire,not out of obligation.I will achieve this..Trust me,Lord.I need your strength to overcome my mind.I need your victory to conquer myself.I need Your grace to free me again from my sins.I want to stand up again to say that I love You,Lord,from the deepest of my heart.

Dearest Pastor Sunther....

Dearest
Pastor Sunther,

You left us.Not a single word you left for us.When I received your news,suddenly recalled many many pictures of you in my mind.When you were smiling.When you were having meeting with the teachers.When you were having breakfast with us.When you were praying for me.You gently took hold of my hand and brought me to the front to be prayed for.You loved stand at the back door and watched the kids.You loved to encourage us,fan our hearts into flame again.

When I shed tears for Jia Wey and Jing Hong,you felt heartache for me ….You prayed for me.You gently took hold of my hands and uttered a prayer of boldness and love.Your words are stamped in my heart.Though I knew you better in this year,you had been a great encouragement and the strength that pushed me ongoing fire for God.When I felt down,you motivated us.I love the way you preached.Your theory of unlearning.Your love for us, alarmed us with the word of God.

Pastor,though I;m not from AOG,I really thankful to God that He brought me to know you.You had touched my life deeply,which I will never forget for the rest of my life.In shalom’s retreat,in sports day,in meeting,in preaching,in talking……so many of you…every movement of yours kept appearing in my mind.I tried.I tried to recall what you had prayed for us.I tried.I tried to recall every single event that happened.I tried.I tried to recall when I saw you for the last time.Yes,It was in Malaysian youth prayer gathering.When you shaked my hands.You had warmed my heart….

You love the kids.All are your dearest kids.Though you’re strict sometimes,but your love for them cant helped to overflow from your face.Your dearest school,Shalom.How many lives you had touched through this place.You had lit up Kluang,this little town.I miss you so much,my dear pastor Sunther.I love you so much.I don’t even have the last chance to bid goodbye to you.I really love you.You had touched many people’s lives.I’m really glad that I am one of them.Now you had gone back to the Lord.I will miss you very very much.I can’t bear to let you go.But I know,you are looking down from the heaven to the earth now.No matter how sad I am,one of the things that comforts me is you are with Him right now.At least I know that you are taking rest in the Lord.

No words can describe how I miss you and long to see you for the last time.I will keep your words and advice for me in my heart for the rest of my life.I will keep on going no matter how hard is it because you had enlightened my life.Dont worry,Ps Lydia and the kids are in Lord’s hands.The angels will guard them.Hope we will meet in the heaven one day,when the Lord’s glorious return.

crack?

Have been here for more than two months le…starting from the 10 until now,from unknown and unfamiliar until can chat happily together,went through thick and thin,sharing tears and joy….I thought our relationship will last….I really hope so….But somehow,the last thing I would want to see actually happened.Crack.An united family began to have a minor crack in between.It’s not obvious,and the crack is so small until it’s like invisible.However,crack is still a crack.I know,remain together in a BIG family is not easy,can be said as IMPOSSIBLE,but somehow I can feel there is a barrier….Why?I want to be equally good to all the family members in this family.Sometimes,I’m not given a chance.Sometimes,I am not taking initiative.Partly my fault too.Anyway,before this crack grow bigger,I will try my very best to amend.This is the least thing I can do.