终于。。终于。。终于。。结束了！！
这一个月的煎熬。。考试终于结束了！
过去这一个月，真的像是人间地狱啊！每天就关在那密不透风的房里，睡醒就读书，读了几面又“砰”了一声，扑在桌上。。十一点半就出去走走，打包午餐，六点冲凉，六点半吃饭，吃了又读，七点读了，头脑saturated了，又睡着了。。。突然又惊醒，洗把脸，又跳回桌上，就这样周而复始，比坐牢的生活更有规律！唯一不规律的是，我的黑夜变成了白天，黑夜－－没了。坐在房里真的呼吸困难偶！
而且，最生气的是，包包脸出来了！！！气死我了！又没钱买bio essence...大豆小豆－－呼之欲出，要出不出，蜂拥而出。。我的脸都已经烂了，竟然还酱对我？！！暗淡无光。。脸跟我作对，身体也跟我作对，肚子打仗，五脏六腑都反了。。
但是！终于，挨过了！好想大喊，大睡，大笑，大上网，大声唱歌。。。好多好多事要做偶，不说了，我要出做我的事了！掰。。
Friday, November 14, 2008
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
鸡蛋～
那天，秀丽给了我一粒水煮蛋。热乎乎的。。突然心血来潮，帮它拍了写真照。。:P 拨开它，它的蛋白是那么的晶莹剔透，蛋黄又那么的鲜艳。我在想，如果，我的人生能够像蛋白一样，没有污垢那该多好啊！能够带给别人营养，自己也开心。。但是，好像很难也。。没关系，我就把它列为我明年的目标吧！至于蛋黄呢。。。营养价更高，但胆固醇也高。。偶尔吃吃，也不错。。偶尔疯一疯，也过瘾！整天平平淡淡也满无聊的也！但，我还是比较喜欢吃蛋白。虽然只是一粒蛋，但是，吃在嘴里，真能感受到Derrie的用心哦！哭了！哈哈：p （很废吧，鸡蛋也可以拿来写部落格。。。〕
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
When I woke up in the morning,I think of you..
Getting out of the bed,I think of how pinel gland secrete melatonin to adjust my biolical clock…
When I walked out of my room,I think of how muscle contraction and relaxation works…
When I am in the bathroom,i though of how the water influence my body fluid,electrolyte and acid base balance…
When I am in the toilet,I thought of urine formation…
When I am pangsai-ing,I thought of urea cycle…
When I am eating my bread,I thought of how to digest u…
When I drink my milo,I thought of how it goes through my stomach,into small intestine,into large intestine…
When I walk down the stair case,I thought of the angonist,antagonist effect…
When I am grasping for air,I thought of how air goes into pharynx,larynx and trachea…
When I am look at the computer,I thought of how my eyes can work…
When I go to café,I thought of how olfactory receptor in my nose works…
When I eat,I thought of how gustatory sense works…
When I am full,I wonder parasympathetic system makes me feel sleepy…
Countless days and nights(though three weeks only),I thought of you…open my eye is you,close my eyes,I will see you in my dreams…Now,FINALLY,I have to say “bye-bye” to you……listen,its bye bye,not “see you” coz I don’t want to see you again…(but ur relative can accept la)…
Good Bye~ANATOMY,PHYSIOLOGY,BIOCHEMISTRY!!!SO long,farewell and take care!!!
Getting out of the bed,I think of how pinel gland secrete melatonin to adjust my biolical clock…
When I walked out of my room,I think of how muscle contraction and relaxation works…
When I am in the bathroom,i though of how the water influence my body fluid,electrolyte and acid base balance…
When I am in the toilet,I thought of urine formation…
When I am pangsai-ing,I thought of urea cycle…
When I am eating my bread,I thought of how to digest u…
When I drink my milo,I thought of how it goes through my stomach,into small intestine,into large intestine…
When I walk down the stair case,I thought of the angonist,antagonist effect…
When I am grasping for air,I thought of how air goes into pharynx,larynx and trachea…
When I am look at the computer,I thought of how my eyes can work…
When I go to café,I thought of how olfactory receptor in my nose works…
When I eat,I thought of how gustatory sense works…
When I am full,I wonder parasympathetic system makes me feel sleepy…
Countless days and nights(though three weeks only),I thought of you…open my eye is you,close my eyes,I will see you in my dreams…Now,FINALLY,I have to say “bye-bye” to you……listen,its bye bye,not “see you” coz I don’t want to see you again…(but ur relative can accept la)…
Good Bye~ANATOMY,PHYSIOLOGY,BIOCHEMISTRY!!!SO long,farewell and take care!!!
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
放马过来吧！
“If my God is for us,who can be against us?”Romans 8:31
你来一科，我就拼一科，你来两科，我就拼一双！终于，我把两科很重很重的科目给干掉了。今天踏出考场那一刻，松了一大口气，也不管我写对写错，圈对圈错。。。考试还没结束呢！才刚开始而已！但不知怎么的，从开始考试以来，我都没有很紧张，反而有一股无比的平静荡漾在我心里。我知道是祢。进考场前那十五分钟，祢的喜乐溢满我的心，那时，我有股冲动，想要大声唱歌赞美祢！就算坐在考场里，我也不会慌，因为我知道，你真的没有离开我。我又找回我在stpm时那股平安。感谢祢！祢让我知道，到了最后，不管准备多充足也好，不充足也好，祢给的平安智慧最重要。但我不会就此找借口不读书，反而，我会更加努力，把我的成绩献给祢，荣耀祢的名。
你来一科，我就拼一科，你来两科，我就拼一双！终于，我把两科很重很重的科目给干掉了。今天踏出考场那一刻，松了一大口气，也不管我写对写错，圈对圈错。。。考试还没结束呢！才刚开始而已！但不知怎么的，从开始考试以来，我都没有很紧张，反而有一股无比的平静荡漾在我心里。我知道是祢。进考场前那十五分钟，祢的喜乐溢满我的心，那时，我有股冲动，想要大声唱歌赞美祢！就算坐在考场里，我也不会慌，因为我知道，你真的没有离开我。我又找回我在stpm时那股平安。感谢祢！祢让我知道，到了最后，不管准备多充足也好，不充足也好，祢给的平安智慧最重要。但我不会就此找借口不读书，反而，我会更加努力，把我的成绩献给祢，荣耀祢的名。
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Chill out?BURNT OUT????Help~~~
Burnt out!I can believe it!Today we actually spent whole day in JPAM to undergo simulation..Felt like time flowed back to the time when I was in National Service…
Well,I must say,this simulation did not come in right time…They didn’t care for our opposition for the reason exam is just 2 days time! So, all of us forced to go VERY unwillingly(partly because of the tips they were going to give us also)…
Anyway,since we went le,we just want to enjoy ourselves lo,no matter how tough it was.Why made ourselves so unhappy ler?Exactly the same while I was in NS camp..wow…PT 10…long long time didn’t play this thing le…There came shocking news,ujian kawad.WHAT?ujian kawad?apa lah…didn’t inform us beforehand…gave us almost 1hour to prepare…ai sheh…malu la…coz ..know la,without practice is …
(but we didn’t get the last place la finally,hehe)
Erm,then we entered into practical session.How to fight fire and carry victim…quite a bored one as I had learnt before le…but with different people, so learn with different feeling lo….actually quite fun la…
Now,the most irritating part came.SUN BURNT!It has been a long long long long time that I been exposed under sunlight for so long le….eish…turned me darker…ah…I don’t want go to ns time’s skin colour….my nose already turned black le….how…..*sob*
Well,I must say,this simulation did not come in right time…They didn’t care for our opposition for the reason exam is just 2 days time! So, all of us forced to go VERY unwillingly(partly because of the tips they were going to give us also)…
Anyway,since we went le,we just want to enjoy ourselves lo,no matter how tough it was.Why made ourselves so unhappy ler?Exactly the same while I was in NS camp..wow…PT 10…long long time didn’t play this thing le…There came shocking news,ujian kawad.WHAT?ujian kawad?apa lah…didn’t inform us beforehand…gave us almost 1hour to prepare…ai sheh…malu la…coz ..know la,without practice is …
(but we didn’t get the last place la finally,hehe)
Erm,then we entered into practical session.How to fight fire and carry victim…quite a bored one as I had learnt before le…but with different people, so learn with different feeling lo….actually quite fun la…
Now,the most irritating part came.SUN BURNT!It has been a long long long long time that I been exposed under sunlight for so long le….eish…turned me darker…ah…I don’t want go to ns time’s skin colour….my nose already turned black le….how…..*sob*
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
sad....
The 1st shocking news after my return from holiday…WYE LI……is leaving!Oh no…though I knew bout it long ago,and I already expected of it long ago,deep in my heart,I was hoping that she will change her mind…Anyway,she has made her decision.haiz…besides long haiz..what can I say?It saddens me.true.Y li,do u know that u are an important friend in my opto life?I used to have you around…ur encouragement,ur support,ur advice,ur contributions…In fact,I found that we have some similarities in our thinking…I’m really glad to have found you,who I can talk bout something which I cant talk to other ppl…But you are leaving.Y li,I really cant bear to let u go…but for ur future,I will still support you to chase after ur dreams…
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
rekindle...
How time flies! It has been almost a year that I left my school which I had stayed for SEVEN years!Ever since after my form six,indeed, I lived a different life that I never live before.àI went on a short mission trip.--> I worked in shalom.-->I took care of the kids.-->I tutored two15 years old teenagers which could drive me crazy.-->I met with new people.-->I left Kluang.-->I was “landed” in a totally new place called KL.Sounds like I never had some time to settle down and recharge of myself….The flow of all these events is so smooth and continually,without giving me a chance to reset my thoughts and my mind…
In such a time like this,I fell away.I fell short of His glory.I stopped stepping forward.I don’t know why.The fire came in and out.It’s my fault.I just felt dryness in me…It’s a very serious problem,I know.Deep inside my heart,I was crying out to Him.However…,my flesh is weak.My mind was making battle everyday in me,asking me to give up.I am sick of this.I had enough!Hyprocitely,I appeared to be okay and good,because of my pride.
The situation turned worse when I came to KL.I had made a covenant with God.I don’t want to leave Him.I want to be fruitful in Him.But somehow,I cant.I found out that I breathe the different air in KL.Im suffocating.Dealing with all sorts of problems made me forget to spend time with Him.My life turned dry.Everytime when Holy Spirit tried to minister to me,I gave up the chance.I didn’t treasure.I washed away by the trend of the world.I cant stand firm in Christ.I share goodness,I became a giver,but sometimes I’m not happy,I’m not cheerful.There is bitterness in me that causes me to not to potray God’s love in my life.
I didn’t see Him,but trying to handle everything using my own wisdom.How silly am I!Till the end,I ended up to be extremely tired.Especially after Pastor Sunther’s death,the hit to me was great. I couldn’t accept the fact that he left us.I don’t know why God allowed such a godly man to leave the earth so early.Since then,I realized that I actually starting to fall away…I put down my bible. I stop praying for others.I felt that my mind was controlling me deliberately to stop seeing him.Oh my goodness!it’s terrible.everything that happened around me could aroused my anger very easily. I lost temper. I complained. The bitterness is in me,until I cant chase it away. I discovered that I deliberately let go of myself to do things I am not supposed to do.
God is gracious.No matter in what situation,He still cares for me.I had backsliddened.But God pulled me back again.It’s still in progress…humbly come before Him to confess my sin.I picked up my bible again.Though the dryness is still in me,I want to continue this journey.I want to read His word because of my desire,not out of obligation.I will achieve this..Trust me,Lord.I need your strength to overcome my mind.I need your victory to conquer myself.I need Your grace to free me again from my sins.I want to stand up again to say that I love You,Lord,from the deepest of my heart.
In such a time like this,I fell away.I fell short of His glory.I stopped stepping forward.I don’t know why.The fire came in and out.It’s my fault.I just felt dryness in me…It’s a very serious problem,I know.Deep inside my heart,I was crying out to Him.However…,my flesh is weak.My mind was making battle everyday in me,asking me to give up.I am sick of this.I had enough!Hyprocitely,I appeared to be okay and good,because of my pride.
The situation turned worse when I came to KL.I had made a covenant with God.I don’t want to leave Him.I want to be fruitful in Him.But somehow,I cant.I found out that I breathe the different air in KL.Im suffocating.Dealing with all sorts of problems made me forget to spend time with Him.My life turned dry.Everytime when Holy Spirit tried to minister to me,I gave up the chance.I didn’t treasure.I washed away by the trend of the world.I cant stand firm in Christ.I share goodness,I became a giver,but sometimes I’m not happy,I’m not cheerful.There is bitterness in me that causes me to not to potray God’s love in my life.
I didn’t see Him,but trying to handle everything using my own wisdom.How silly am I!Till the end,I ended up to be extremely tired.Especially after Pastor Sunther’s death,the hit to me was great. I couldn’t accept the fact that he left us.I don’t know why God allowed such a godly man to leave the earth so early.Since then,I realized that I actually starting to fall away…I put down my bible. I stop praying for others.I felt that my mind was controlling me deliberately to stop seeing him.Oh my goodness!it’s terrible.everything that happened around me could aroused my anger very easily. I lost temper. I complained. The bitterness is in me,until I cant chase it away. I discovered that I deliberately let go of myself to do things I am not supposed to do.
God is gracious.No matter in what situation,He still cares for me.I had backsliddened.But God pulled me back again.It’s still in progress…humbly come before Him to confess my sin.I picked up my bible again.Though the dryness is still in me,I want to continue this journey.I want to read His word because of my desire,not out of obligation.I will achieve this..Trust me,Lord.I need your strength to overcome my mind.I need your victory to conquer myself.I need Your grace to free me again from my sins.I want to stand up again to say that I love You,Lord,from the deepest of my heart.
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